Fresh Bread
      # 15

WHY?

SEPARATED FROM GOD

      When I awoke, I didn’t feel as connected to God as I wanted to. In fact I felt very far away and weak in faith. That’s when the Holy Spirit reminded me: “Faith Cometh by Hearing and Hearing by the Word of God.”
      So, I opened my Bible and began to read. Each word I read was full of the life and faith I needed.
      “I must stay connected to my life source.” I thought. I must remember my purpose and motive for living. For me it is to “Send Forth His Word Through Writing.” He hasn’t asked me to do everything, but He has simplified my life by asking me to do one thing, and I desire to do that well.
      When you see the initials MLMH, perhaps you can remember that they stand for: My Lord – My Husband. The Lord has used many examples from my earthly husband to teach me about my Heavenly Husband. So this is one of those MLMH lessons.
      When I awake in the morning desiring my earthly husband, I experience the separation from a union that was meant to be eternally connected. And I cry out as Jesus did…” Why have you forsaken me?”.
      “What have I done so wrong that you have no mercy on me? How can you be so cold as to not care how I hurt? I feel like this disconnection is killing me.”
      Then I heard the Holy Spirit’s regular reminder. “You said you wanted to know me better.”
      When Jesus was on the cross, He and His Father were one. But at the point of sacrifice, there was a great tearing of their oneness….similar to the tearing of an earthly man or woman, when their spouse turns their face away from them and leaves them to suffer alone. The one left alone in silence, does not understand how this could happen. There is only one person who can fill their need…and now that person refuses to acknowledge their oneness.
      I believe this is what it felt like to Jesus. For His season on the cross, He had to feel total separation form God who was a part of Himself. He too, felt that jagged knife that rips down the middle of a hurting spouse when their other half chooses to count them unworthy of their love. Although the loyal spouse has given their all, the one who leaves makes them feel disgusting, dirty, a failure…not worthy of their love and relationship.
      I’ve heard that hell is total separation from God…for eternity.
      We only have a taste of this in the natural when our earthly love chooses to turn his/her face from us and we continually feel disconnected.
      Should I experience this every morning of my life, Lord help me to remember that You have already experienced it for me. There seems to be no end to the things You did for us on the Cross. There is nothing in our life that You do not understand to the FULL. Thank You, Jesus.
      Many of my sisters and brothers are suffering right now, Lord, and they are crying out the same as you did. They are asking God, “Why have You forsaken me?”.
      God could no more forsake Jesus than He could forsake Himself…because they are One. But for His love for us, God allowed Jesus to experience what we experience when we don’t understand “Why?”.
      As God’s SEED (children), there is no greater pain for us than to think we are separated from God. That would be a living hell for us on earth.
      But as His seed, we cannot be separated from Him, anymore than Jesus can, or the Holy Spirit.
      So, we must ignore that seed of doubt that Satan has used against us for so long in that one little word…”Why?”. Which means, “My God, my God, why hast Thou forsaken me?” (Mark 15:34b). Can’t you see Satan whispering in our ear, as he did to Eve? “Are you sure God said: He will never leave you nor forsake you?”
      When Jesus cried out with a loud voice and gave up the ghost (died). When the veil of the temple was rent in twain from the top to the bottom. Just as the soldiers tore His coat that was without seam, woven from the top through out (John 19:23b)…there was a tearing in our hearts separating us from our earthly connection. Jesus felt it all…and understands today.
      Now we know “Why”. It is so that we can know our Lord better, as He chose to know us; to experience every pain of heartache and separation that we would ever experience on this earth.
      Then, to take it upon Himself so that we do not have to hurt like this if by faith, we will receive the Truth of what He has done for us.
      “Why?” Just because He loves us so much and supplies ALL our needs to the FULL. Even the need to know “Why?”…to the FULL. If we will take time to sincerely ask Him…and wait for His answer.
      The lie of Satan…to be kept in the BOX of SIN, is that God has forsaken us. He cannot, once we become His SEED. He is always in us.

TO THE FULL