PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER
(Personal Trinity)
Part II - Soul

“He restores my soul…for His Name’s sake.” (Psalms 23:3).

          “Pull yourself together”, the Lord reminded me. As the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit are a three-part being, so are you. I love your spirit; I love your soul, and I even love your body. I created all three for a purpose.”
          Growing up in a strict religious family, to be a “good girl” was very important. To be a “good girl” carried with it the idea that I could receive not only my mother’s love, but later my husband’s. I was convinced of this.
          Interesting that during all those years, my earthly father saw me as my Heavenly Father was seeing me. My earthly father saw me as perfect through his eyes of Love. Surely he was awed by this beautiful creation that his SEED had produced.

                    “Whosoever is born of God doth not
                    commit sin; for His seed remains
                    in him/her: and he cannot sin; because
                    he is born of God.”
                                                            (1 John 3:9).

          Receiving Jesus at the age of nine, led to the Lord by my earthly father, he was not only my earthly father, but also my earthly spiritual father. I didn’t understand that then, but now I can understand why we were so in unity of spirit.
          It was years before I understood why I never had a desire to do the worldly things that many young people were temped to do. It was because I became a new creation so early in life. The new man (person) has no desire for the old. God’s SEED has been planted in them at the time of their New Birth and their desires change for the better.
          Living so long as the “good girl”, I later connected this “good girl” way of life to the spiritual girl when I received the Baptism of the Holy Spirit.
          Now, Praise God, there was more power in my life to become that “good girl”. Now, I would surely be loved.

          Then the day came recently when the Lord told me. “Pull yourself together, Gwen. You are a 3-part being just as I am. (Father-Son-Holy Spirit). As we work as One, so do your 3 parts.
          “You have thought that it was only your spirit that I loved. That is not true. I also love your soul (your personality, talents, gifts) which you have nearly displaced by striving so hard for My acceptance of your spiritual person.
          “No, I created all three and love all three equally. My desire is for the unity of these 3 to work together.
          “I love your SOUL which I created. Let’s restore your soul. Okay? You’ve worshipped man for so long, trying to please them (mother, husband, children, others) to gain their approval which meant love to you…that you forgot who you were.
          “Let’s try to remember so I can restore your soul. You may have to accept the good things that others said they saw in you because no matter what achievements I brought into your life, the enemy convinced you that you were unworthy, therefore you could never enjoy what I created in you and your personality.
          “Your soul is not a bad thing. It is an important part of you. Flush some of your old lessons about your soul…we’re going to give the word “soulish”…a new meaning.
          “As you look back at the accomplishments in your life that came about through the good soul that I created in you, I know they don’t even seem real. You were so afraid (fear is not of Me) of boasting or being prideful, or taking credit for even the good things I had you do. As though, it would somehow take credit from Me.
          “Don’t you know I am a BIG GOD! J Don’t you know that we are in this together? There is no competition between you and Me. To ‘be ashamed of yourself”...as your mother’s ‘idle words’ were planted in you, is not honorable.
          “I know your spirit has trained you well to give Me all the Glory. But remember My desire when Jesus prayed that we all might be one in each
          Other?

FATHER REVEALS MY SOUL

          “Oh, how you, Gwen, hate the idea of ‘pride’. I will give you another word to restore your soul. Your SOUL is your natural man (woman). It is the person who accomplished much before she even knew there was a Holy Spirit.
          “What did she accomplish? I (God) know because I was watching over you all the time. But what did that Gwen accomplish? Bring her back; the good, solid, soul of Gwen that others saw, but she refused to acknowledge. Do you see how hard it is even for you to separate your soul from your spirit?”
           “Yes, Lord.” I responded. Then I began to pray: “Father, my FULLNESS in You will reveal to me my soul…as it was before it knew the Holy Spirit was present. This is important because I need to see Your original pattern for my life. I need to receive it and accept it. Then, I can understand it’s part in my personal trinity.”

HERE GOES…

          My soul stepped out into life with the belief that I could do anything I wanted to do, go anywhere I wanted to go. I could accomplish anything if I were willing to stick to it and work hard enough.
          Faith in my natural man (good soul) took me many places. The special ones I enjoyed in the natural (not considering good or evil). I just persisted and Did It. As my son says: “Just Do It.”
          In Junior High School I decided to make many friends and I did.
          The result was many honors from man. I decided to learn to ride a horse because I liked cowboys and was made the FFA Sweetheart where I was allowed to ride in their rodeo. I decided to become an Airline Stewardess so I went for it and enjoyed that experience. I decided to go to college and get a degree…and by the Grace of God, I did that and even got higher degrees, although no one could convince me that I was smart enough to do that.
          Because I thought I could do anything, I attempted much and usually succeeded. But it was because it was in my soul to persevere.
          In the school business I fought many political battles but could never allow myself to give up. It wasn’t in me to “give up.”
          As a “high achiever”, always attempting things that in the natural seemed impossible, I decided to move up from teaching physical education to the challenge of coaching. I’m so glad I did. I loved my students and athletes, and learned many lessons in life through this experience.
          I chose to teach my athletes about the Higher calls on their lives. I remember having them dress like ladies and wear their travel uniforms to and from the games. They were maroon velvet dresses and jump suits. And, would you believe, heels? J My lesson to them: You can be a lady, but when in the battle, you have to be tough.
          Because I wanted to coach, lead drill team, etc. I did. But fought confusion for reasons I understand now. God did send help and I persevered. So I did it…in the natural…trusting my built-in instincts of survival and desire to win; never accepting defeat as a permanent choice.
          I married the man I wanted and still feel he was right for me. It became a daily challenge for growth and constant decision making. I did it. I am not ashamed of the endurance and choices I made to trust him and love him, and attempt to serve him. I have survived.
          Satan used him to try to rob my identity and used me to try to rob his. But we both survived and our souls (personal identity given by God) are being restored.
          My personality (my soul) has a purpose in working together with God. It is time for it’s restoration and significance in my personal trinity.
          I chose to live by myself in a safe place, given to me by God, rather than continue in an environment where my soul was being crushed day by day, and my body would soon follow. I knew I could live by myself and be okay. And I did for years. There was a purpose…which definitely led to the building of a closer relationship with God.
          The book Angel Food is definitely of God for God, but His SEED planted in me first began with His use of my “perseverance” and “possibility thinking”. While others laughed at me for thinking I could write a book…I still had that soul belief that I could. So I did! And my soul is what delighted in seeing it published many years later.
          Well, my soul was never lost. God knew where it was all the time, but I need His “revelation” to show it to me and it’s significance.
          Then I said to the Lord, “Lord, it’s difficult for me to even believe that all those things (and much more) really happened to me. It’s hard now to believe that I truly lived that life. Why?”
          “Believe Me,” He said. “You did.” Is was as though Jesus began talking and said: “I remember My earth walk with fond memories because I love man so much…and desire him to be with me again face to face. That was My earth walk and you’ve just been reviewing some of your earth walk.
          That was really you…that was really Me…and necessary for you and necessary for Me.” Then He smiled and said, “It was good, wasn’t it?” J
          Then the Lord showed me that for all of us, using these same parts of our soul, it’s normal to desire to venture forward with Him. We delight so much being one with Him and walking the spirit walk with Him.
          Today, our journey has been more like looking at a family album, but the traits He built into our soul, press us forward to learn more of Him and to walk in new revelations daily. He decided. He chose us. And He chooses to do that for us. He knows how much we enjoy growing in Him.

          So these are some of the things I recalled about my soul. My soul is:
Persistent, adventuresome, laughs a lot, loves people/all kinds, creative, forgives easily, defender of the weak, encourager, great desire to share new revelations, full of questions, always moving forward in possibility thinking .

WHAT CAN YOU RECALL ABOUT YOUR
SOUL?